Apr 10, 2012

Chapter 16

i woke up to the smell of pancakes

i had to wake up..

I LOVE PANCAKES

kan fee tray 3ala the floor fee pancakes w orange juice

there wasnt anyone in the room so i guessed it was for me :p

i brushed my teeth then went to my pancakes

shlt'hum w ga3dt on my bed and started eating

someone knocked on my door

me: come in!

khaled: how is ur breakfast in bed?

me: great thank you, bas 9adigny ma ra7 ansa

khaled: adri, ana ghla6t w wallah ra7 ajarib awagif

me: thats why i love u!

he left chan tyee dalool

me: dalal sorry ams 7gartich and i was mean im sure u understand

dalal: laaa 3adi i know how u feel angel

i gave her a huge smile :D

wayiha kan mstaghrib

me: dalal shfeech?

dalal: shnu hatha 3ala eedich?

me: umm madri

it was the cut x_x

dalal: fay t7achay a3arifich laman tchathbeen

me: dalal i started cutting

dalal: laish?! ma ra7 ynfi3ich! youre hurting urself and the people around u who love u, ma ra7 too9leen 7ag shay, it wont help!

me: dalal it makes me happy

dalal: ee bas please stop, i'll help u, talk to me, i'll be ur therapist

me: okay, thank you

her face kan a9far

me: dalool laish wayhich a9far?

dalal: trakt khaled

me: ee 9a7! galee! nsait, laish?

dalal: mabee hal 5arabee6, especially not with ur cousin! w t3tabraina ukhouch!

me: kaifich, bas itha btiz3leen ohwa y7ibich and ma ra7 tlageen a7san mna

dalal: madri ashoof, i still love him bas lazem afakir, hes changing

me: okay! 9a7 ure right, he is changing

ga3adna nsoolif abt the girls and school and everything

today is our last day blchalet

its sunday bas ma fee madrisa, 3a6oona day off, khalaty wiya their kids ra7aw ams coz 3ndhum school today fa bas ana w khaled w dalal blchalet w nasser yay 3al ghada

abdullah was talking to me, telling me about him while khaled and dalal went walking to talk about their relationship

he was very sweet

he was also attractive

he held my hand

i smiled bas i knew ina i love nasser w only nasser

me: abdullah please bas, ent mithil my brother

abdullah: sorry fay bas ure my weakness

aww

me: its ok, bas please dont do this

abdullah: inshallah

hes polite bas sawa ily sawaa because he loves me, he couldnt stop himself (im not being a snob bas thats what he said)

abdullah didnt know why dalal and khaled went walking, i just told him ina they both wanna walk fa they went together

irja3aw w kan shakilhum happy

dalal whispered in my ear: fay, we decided just to be frineds

me: thats good

i winked at khaled

HAHA kan shakilna ghaby w abdullah mstaghrib

9arat il sa3a 3:00 , ya nasser, fa 7a6aw ilghada


kalaina bara because the weather was great, it was warm


kan fee wa7da bas itmur 9oub our chalet, she was pretty


kanat labsa a beautiful white dress, kanat 7ada pink lipstock, her hair was long and wavy, she was soo beautiful

kanat it5iz nasser

narfizatny

w nasser 6ab3an 3ayish il dour, tith7akla bnt jameela

dashait dakhil w 9a3adt to my room

i took the knife

i thought: la2 fay use ur brain

bas i couldnt, it was addicting, thats how a6ali3 7arity

i did it, i cut

blood blood blood

it hurt, i was crying

nasser: fay open the door

me: NO, WAIT!

nasser: fay shfeech gooleeli

imsawee nafsa innocent

me: please nasser rou7

nasser: fay feech shay!

he opened the door

nasser: shnu hatha?!

he got lots of tissues and put them on my hand

me: AYYY! YTHBA7!

nasser: sh9ar?

me: nasser, i cut

nasser: shnu?!

me: rou7 la7ad eshoofna

nasser: gltlohum raye7 il 7amam lat 5afeen, why do u cut?!

there was a moment of silence

....: shsawait ib fay????!!!!


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