Know Regrets- Post 5

Hello i missed u all! I know i haven't posted for a long time and i apologize thats why this post will be the longest i can do :). I disabled my twitter account because there's no use of it. If u need anything; advice, help or anyone to talk to just post it on my ask and i wont publish and ur secret will be between us only. I want to help. ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove  ,, i might come back to twitter but as for now i wont.
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let me act confused

@LAl_Flani: which question?

instantly he DMed me back

@FAl_Flani: do u love me?

yes i do!

@LAl_Flani: i dont like discussing this topic i dont want to be like those people

@FAl_Flani: so u do love me?

this is creepy, maryam is downstairs with everyone and mo ashkara anzilaha ta7at anadeeha when hes with them hes gonna know i need her for this

i didnt answer for 10 minutes

@FAl_Flani: alo?? r u there?

@LAl_Flani: i need to get some sleep, gn

seconds later i heard footsteps outside mariams room

there was a hole in the door because when ahmad was young he was playing with the drill secretly and poked a hole through mariams chalet room door

i could see a brown pupil peeking inside, i could hear someone breathing

me: "mno?"

..: "3abaly btnameen"

me: "uhh ma gdart anam"

..: "can i come in"

i knew who it was

me:  "mno?"

..: "lina la tsta3b6ain tadren ana mno"

me: "faisal?"

faisal: "la 7lfay wala"

me: "yes?"

faisal: "adish?"

me: "im wearing short pyjamas fa l2 and can u stop staring"

i covered myself with the blanket

faisal: "ka gha6aitay nafsch"

me: "stop looking!"

faisal: "enzain enzain, agol 3ndch skype?"

me: "eh"

faisal: " 3yal rday 3ala my question bskype aw DM u choose"

way3 jad way3 im dead

me: "DM"

faisal: "DM it is, goodnight beautiful"

goosebumps :$

me: "goodnight"

my heart was racing

i was soo shy

i looked at  myself in the mirror to find my white, pale face look like it has been painted red

@LAl_Flani: yes ok? happy?

@FAl_Flani: MORE THAN HAPPY <3<3

@LAl_Flani: but faisal

@FAl_Flani: amray

@LAl_Flani:  ma yamir 3laik 3adu, maby relationship

@FAl_Flani: afa mo relationship just messages

@LAl_Flani: l2 magdar ana mo mtrabya chthi

@FAl_Flani: ba76ch b 3aini w 3ala rasy w allah y3lam shkthr a7bch

@LAl_Flani: mashkor bs l2

@FAl_Flani: hatha 8rarch w 5athayti shinsawee

@LAl_Flani: gn

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight ;*

i captured the chat and sent it to mariam and went to sleep

i slept with goosebumps and with a smile on my face

-

mariam: "FAY goumay shimsawya entay shimsawya??"

me: "shimsawya?"

mariam: "entay w faisal!"

me: "dazaytlich il chat"

mariam: "7ragtay galb ahmad fay tadren ena y7ibich"

i jumped out of mariams sofa bed

me: "w mn meta uhwa y7ibne? i thought his little crush went away!"

mariam: "hes crazy about u tawa galy cant u see him flirting with u"

me: "hes nothing more than a brother to me!!"

mariam: "he wants to talk to u ill be waiting outside"

me: "wait let me get ready"

i wore my light green cropped jeans with my white flowy shirt and my beige sandals




i applied some light makeup, my light brown eyes popped out and i was ready to go



mariam: "yala 5la9tay?"

me: "eh"

ahmad entered with his head down as mariam left giving me a look that meant 'good luck'

ahmad: "lina ana bagoolich bi5ti9ar, entay tadren eny a7bch w amout fech bs l7agtay faisal mithl il 5arof w ana shft il chat ams, entay wa7da ananiya w ma3ndch galb e7is ib ay a7ad bs t7iben lina w faisal, lina w faisal, w 3ala fkra faisal rfeejy ma ra7 a'6lma l2ana entay ily l7agti"

tears started falling down my eyes naturally

Ouch.

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Know Regrets- Post 4

Please forgive me i know i havent posted in days, feedback @KuwaitTeenLove or ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove sorry :(
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@LAl_Flani: haha good one, sorry i cant

@FAl_Flani: trust me on this one

@LAl_Flani: ok

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight

@LAl_Flani: i will, u too :)

i went to bed not knowing what to do, i had mized emotions i couldnt describe

i loved him but i thought he was being a little too flirty

my alarm waked me up at 3:30 am

i got up, wore a long yellow shirt with black leggings that went down to my ankles

i applied some mascara and left my light brown, caramalish straight hair to fall bellow my shoulders up to my waist

i woke up mariam

me: "mariam goumay"

mariam: "way3a rou7ay ana mo ya ya wyach shaku tgwmeni"

39abt

i walked out

mariam: "lina"

me: "na3am"

mariam: "be careful, i love u L"

me: "i will, love u too M"

those were our silly yet cute nicknames

i went up nervously, clueless of what was gonna happen next

i found faisal with rwo vanilla frappucinos in his tanned, soft hands

faisal: "morning"

me: "hey"

faisal: "tifa'6ilay"

me: "mashkoor"

i found a carpet on the roof that i never saw before

there were daisies on them

faisal: "like my set up? have a seat"

me: "u set this up? wala mratab"

faisal: "mashkora"

he smiled his natural smile

he stared into my pupils

i looked at the ground i was sitting on

me: "um yala please lets finish before anyone sees us"

faisal: "mm ok"

i looked at hime like 'yala!!'

faisal: "lina ana mn awal ma shftch 7baitich dashaitay galby u were like an angel that lit up the whole room i have this thing for u, ur caramel hair and eyes, ur warm heart i just cant stop thinking about u if u wanna run away go ahead ill understand"

he was talking so fast imbayen he was nervous

i was shocked all those words at once from the guy who ive been crushing on for two WHOLE months that didnt know i existed now loves me?

me: "thank u for sharing ur feelings i need to go now"

i wanted to stay i wanted to keep staring into his eyes, i wanted to be loved i wanted to know that someone out there loves me but i was speechless, absolutely speechless




faisal: "lina wait"

he stared at the ground he didnt make eye contact

he didnt even touch me

i turned around

me: "yes?"

faisal: "how do u feel about me?"

suddenly i felt dizzy

i felt like the world was gonna end

only people who were in love would know this feeling

i had no idea hat to say

i didnt wanna make a fool of myself

i heard a car park

thank God i was saved

me: "i need to go they came"

i left my drink without even touching it

as i left i got a glimpse of what faisal was doing

he was holding my drink in one hand and a daisy in another


maybe he really did love me.. maybe he will be the one why am i overthinking again?

i went down to find my family and mariams family

i said my hellos but i wasnt conscious because of all the overthinking

i ran up the stairs and found ahmad

ahmad: "shfeech shfeech?"

me: "ha? la wala shay"

i ran to mariams room

she was putting her make up on

mariam: "5air?"

i told her everything

mariam: "rday 3al 9bay na6rch masken! y7bich 7ram 3alaych!"

i thought about what she said

the day finished really quickly i didnt know who i was with and who i talked to my mind was blown away

it felt like i was dreaming

tana7t

everyone was like: "lina shfeech mo wyana?"

me: "t3bana w bs ma feeny shay"

i went to bed at 9:00pm sharp

i left my phone on the bed and went to the bathroom while everyone was down together having fun, making jokes, telling stories

when i jumped on my bed after wearing my pjs the red light was flashing on my blackberry

i unlocked it to find the little birdy on the top right corner

i opened twitter and it was a DM

@FAl_Flani: you didnt answer my question, theres no escaping now..

what am i supposed to say?

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i hope u enjoyed xx i promise ill post daily from now on after today unless im really busy ;*

Know Regrets- Post 3

sorry i was late i was really busy. goodluck everyone whos still doing their exams xx allah ywafigkum x im gonna try to make this as long as possible cause i dont have anything today :D enjoy x
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 i ignored like i was asleep..

the next morning i woke up to an alarm @ 6:30 am

i didnt put the alarm

i opened my phone to close the alarm and what did i see?

meet me on the roof  -faisal

6:30 am

 (alarm)


maybe he needed something, why not? w 3ayb itha sa2alni laysh ma yet shagola? or u know what i can pretend i pressed dimiss without reading cause i was tired.. yes thats what i will do! im tempted to go to him but im really shy and nervous especially cause its morning and no-ones there to protect me or be there for me. what if someone sees us?

the hamsters in my brain were running and running

go back to sleep lina, u have an excuse

i fell into deep sleep, it was amazing <3

mariam: "LINA WAY3A GOUMAY!"

me: "ha? cham ilsa3a?"

mariam: "il sa3a 1 w entay ma gmtay!"

me: "why didnt u wake me up?"

mariam: "ma tfhmen? i was waking u up for ages tawich tgoumen!"

me: "yaw il ahal?"

mariam: "l2 byoun bacher mistansen bl dera 3ndhum 3rs"

me: "ahh ok ta3alay ma gltlch"

i told her about the alarm

mariam: "uff chathaba mta 5atha telephonich?"

me: "thats what im gonna find out"

mariam was wearing a green abercrombie shirt with yellow free city pants, she had her hair tied in a bun

i decided to wear my abercrombie shorts and orange cancun baggy shirt

i let my long, wavy, light brown hair fall bellow my shoulders to match with my eyes

i applied a little mascara and lip gloss and i was ready to go

mariam was no where to be found

when i went down the stairs i bumped into faisal

i was about to fall forward

he held my body

i moved away

faisal: "ahh sorry"

me: "ha la 3di thanks"

i smiled at him and i got lost staring at his pupils

faisal: "um lina r u okay?"

my face got red like an apple i was so embarrassed!

me: "yes of course im okay what makes u think that im not okay haha um okay"

*when i get embarrassed and nervous i talk a lot to hide myself but it doesnt really work out

i walked down while he walked up

faisal: "ta3alay lina didnt u get an alarm @ 6:30"

me: "umm eh embala bs ma chayakt bs 76ayt dismiss"

faisal: "aha"

me: "laysh? baghait shay?"

faisal: "la bs knt abee i meet u bl sa67"

me: "fee shay muhim wdk tgola?"

faisal: "ehh"

me: "ok il7een?"

faisal: "ehh l2ana mariam w ahmad ra7aw yishtiroon aghra'6 mn il jam3iya w 5alooni hni 3shan laman tgomen ma t5afen""

me: "aha ok"

faisal: "yala ta3alay il 9la bakalmich"

we went

faisal: "lina tara um madree shlon agolich bs"

me: "faisal gol youre scaring the hell out of me"

meanwhile mariam and ahmad rushed in

ahmad: "morning sleepy head lina!"

me: "um hey"

i was so disappointed jed i wanted to hear what he had to say, i wanted to be with him all alone, i love him

ahmad: "ybnalikum 5afayif mn il jm3iya!"

faisal: "thanks 3d e7na yowa3a zain yibtlna akel"

ahmad: shft i read ur mind

he winked

mtwa'6i3 3ajib!

ahmad: "lina.. i bought u maltesers ice cream ur favorite!"

 me: "how do u know?"

ahmad: "childhood memories, they were great, miss them and miss being friends now youre just friends with mariam"

me: "we'll always be friends ahmad!"

i could see faisal moving in his seat feeling uncomfortable

i could almost see the smoke from his ears

i could see the jealousy in his eyes

did he love me?

i went to bed , expecting a DM from faisal

i kept my phone loud

i couldnt wait any longer

i sent a DM

@LAl_Flani: hey faisal, i was wondering how u took my phone and put an alarm

instantly i got a DM back

@FAl_Flani: u left ur phone on the table unlocked when u went to walk outside so it was my chance, im sorry i know it was rude

@LAl_Flani: i hope u didnt look at my pictures fee 9war banat

@FAl_Flani: dont worry i didnt and i didnt even think of doing it

@LAl_Flani: (y)

 @FAl_Flani: we have to talk tomorrow early morning at 4 meet me on the roof

akhh <3 what i was waiting for

@LAl_Flani: no faisal, what if someone sees us?

@FAl_Flani: ill protect u <3

  
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Know Regrets- Post 2

mariam: "hi ana i5t ahmad w hathy my friend lina"

faisal: "hi" , with a smile on his face

mariam noticed that i was staring in shock

mariam: "i7na bnrou7 fog inraye7"

ahmad: "shd3wa g3do m3ana taw inas we're alone"

mariam: "l2 3di m t3baneen shway"

she grabbed me by the arm and pulled me upstairs

we got in the room and i was standing like a freak

mariam: "lina! sit down"

mariam: "mo hatha faisal the guy u had a crush on?"

me: "eh, i never thought i'd see him after 2 months of crushing on him"

ive found him on twitter and had a crush on him, he never knew i existed

mariam: "il7een be happy u found him"

me: " i am bs ena ma twa83t eny bshoufa"

after 5 minutes of talking ahmad rushed into our room

mariam: "ahmad ma tsti7e what if we were changing?"

ahmad: "bs u arent"

Ahmad and Mariam had a strong, cute relationship. She'd tell him anything and he'd tell her anything no matter what. Even if she was dating she would tell him, he would try to pull her away but he wouldn't hit her or get mad at her. I always wished I'd have a brother like Ahmad but I just have an older sister who I tell everything, Sabeecha, she's awesome. We're just a year apart ( she's 17), she graduated hal sina.

ahmad: "come sit with us girls maleena"

Ahmad was very open-minded ma kan efakir ena wala hathol banat 3eb yg3don ma3a 9byan, I like people like him, they're really wise.

me: "emshay maryoum lets go"

we went down

faisal: "wenkum sa3a?"

ahmad: "8a9abt'hum iyoun"

faisal: "kafo"

we watched a movie called '17 Again' it was an old movie non of us watched

me: "ambay zac efron is soo hot!"

faisal: "we3 ana a7la mna"

mariam: "the8a"

faisal: "eh"

he blushed

he was so cute when he blushed, his white skin turned red like an apple

suddenly i fell asleep

i woke up to something ticking my nose

me: " yal 7meer shitsawoon feeni?"

they were ticking my nose with a feather and had mens shaving foam on my hand so i could touch my nose and get foam all over it

me: "ana 3alimkum"

we all laughed

everyone went to their rooms

me: "ya7leela faisal"

mariam: "eh"

me: "hes mine"

mariam: "dont worry he is"

I LOVE HER!<3

i got a mention

@AAl_Flani: had so much fun today w' @FAl_Flani @MAl_Flani @LAl_Flani #muchlove

i got a new follower

@FAl_Flani has requested to follow you on twitter (my account was private)

me: "maryoum he wants to follow me!"
 

mariam: "accept like a friend and follow him!" 

I got a DM

@FAl_Flani: hey, had great fun with u <3

whats up with the heart?

@LAl_Flani: me too x

@FAl_Flani: cant wait to see u tomorrow

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