Jun 13, 2012

Know Regrets- Post 4

Please forgive me i know i havent posted in days, feedback @KuwaitTeenLove or ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove sorry :(
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@LAl_Flani: haha good one, sorry i cant

@FAl_Flani: trust me on this one

@LAl_Flani: ok

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight

@LAl_Flani: i will, u too :)

i went to bed not knowing what to do, i had mized emotions i couldnt describe

i loved him but i thought he was being a little too flirty

my alarm waked me up at 3:30 am

i got up, wore a long yellow shirt with black leggings that went down to my ankles

i applied some mascara and left my light brown, caramalish straight hair to fall bellow my shoulders up to my waist

i woke up mariam

me: "mariam goumay"

mariam: "way3a rou7ay ana mo ya ya wyach shaku tgwmeni"

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i walked out

mariam: "lina"

me: "na3am"

mariam: "be careful, i love u L"

me: "i will, love u too M"

those were our silly yet cute nicknames

i went up nervously, clueless of what was gonna happen next

i found faisal with rwo vanilla frappucinos in his tanned, soft hands

faisal: "morning"

me: "hey"

faisal: "tifa'6ilay"

me: "mashkoor"

i found a carpet on the roof that i never saw before

there were daisies on them

faisal: "like my set up? have a seat"

me: "u set this up? wala mratab"

faisal: "mashkora"

he smiled his natural smile

he stared into my pupils

i looked at the ground i was sitting on

me: "um yala please lets finish before anyone sees us"

faisal: "mm ok"

i looked at hime like 'yala!!'

faisal: "lina ana mn awal ma shftch 7baitich dashaitay galby u were like an angel that lit up the whole room i have this thing for u, ur caramel hair and eyes, ur warm heart i just cant stop thinking about u if u wanna run away go ahead ill understand"

he was talking so fast imbayen he was nervous

i was shocked all those words at once from the guy who ive been crushing on for two WHOLE months that didnt know i existed now loves me?

me: "thank u for sharing ur feelings i need to go now"

i wanted to stay i wanted to keep staring into his eyes, i wanted to be loved i wanted to know that someone out there loves me but i was speechless, absolutely speechless




faisal: "lina wait"

he stared at the ground he didnt make eye contact

he didnt even touch me

i turned around

me: "yes?"

faisal: "how do u feel about me?"

suddenly i felt dizzy

i felt like the world was gonna end

only people who were in love would know this feeling

i had no idea hat to say

i didnt wanna make a fool of myself

i heard a car park

thank God i was saved

me: "i need to go they came"

i left my drink without even touching it

as i left i got a glimpse of what faisal was doing

he was holding my drink in one hand and a daisy in another


maybe he really did love me.. maybe he will be the one why am i overthinking again?

i went down to find my family and mariams family

i said my hellos but i wasnt conscious because of all the overthinking

i ran up the stairs and found ahmad

ahmad: "shfeech shfeech?"

me: "ha? la wala shay"

i ran to mariams room

she was putting her make up on

mariam: "5air?"

i told her everything

mariam: "rday 3al 9bay na6rch masken! y7bich 7ram 3alaych!"

i thought about what she said

the day finished really quickly i didnt know who i was with and who i talked to my mind was blown away

it felt like i was dreaming

tana7t

everyone was like: "lina shfeech mo wyana?"

me: "t3bana w bs ma feeny shay"

i went to bed at 9:00pm sharp

i left my phone on the bed and went to the bathroom while everyone was down together having fun, making jokes, telling stories

when i jumped on my bed after wearing my pjs the red light was flashing on my blackberry

i unlocked it to find the little birdy on the top right corner

i opened twitter and it was a DM

@FAl_Flani: you didnt answer my question, theres no escaping now..

what am i supposed to say?

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i hope u enjoyed xx i promise ill post daily from now on after today unless im really busy ;*

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