Know Regrets- Post 9

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I got ready swiftly

I applied my usual mascara and red lipstick

I wore a marvelous long blue dress that fit my body perfectly

I put my hair up in a fine bun

I was ready to go but I was very timid

Everyone was ready waiting for me in the lobby while I was in the room I shared with Maryam

As I approached my mother, Sabeecha and Maryam my mother smiled

Mama: "alla y7af'6ch my daughter you're gorgeous"

Sabeecha: "ehm"

Me and Maryam burst out laughing

Mama: "both of you and Maryouma"

Maryam: "mashkora khalti"

We stopped a cab and he drove us there

My heart was beating, I was really nervous

My mom paid the driver and we got out

They're house was luxurious, it was large

Suddenly a white door opened and there was Aunt Fadia, Faisal and a younger version of Aunt Fadia but Aunt Fadia was young, in her 30's

Aunt Fadia: "mar7aba! nawar mitil ma y2ule lkuwaitiya"

We chuckled

Mama: "bwjoudch 7abebte"

We said our hellos, clueless of how many kisses we should give, we did what Aunt Fadia did and kissed 3 times, one cheek at a time

Faisal: "hala khalti, hala banat"

He kept looking down

Now thats respect

Aunt Fadia: "Faisal 3arifhun 3a Julia"

Faisal: "hathy Julia khalti bs mn 3umurna"

She gave us a forced and rejecting smile

Faisal: "tfa'6ilaw"

As I was walking into the living room Julia gave me a death stare

Do I even know you?

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second post today, im bored so im writing. just so u guys know if you're a hater i dont write for u i write for people who wanna read and i write to be happy. enjoy x
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she looked so young and beautiful

was faisal cheating on me?

lina stop it, you're barely together

but he told me he loves me

i have to stop overthinking

me: "maryam tkfain shofay! mno hathy ma3a faisal?"

maryam turned around: "ambai! ma yndara bs be positive!"

mama: "lina! maryam! mno hatha ily t5zoona?"

oh snap

me: "wa7d kuwaiti"

mama: "fe alf kuwaiti ma laysh hatha blthat?

maryam: "khalti hatha wa7d chna shayfeena b 360, ma 3alaih 5an 5ali9"

lifesaver <3

i shook the thought out of my head and helped get the bags while my mom went to the taxi

as i was going out..

faisal: "lina meet my aunt fadia"

sabeecha and mariamwere with me, he was fine with them knowing about us

me: "uh hi"

fadia: "mar7aba keefik?"

me: "zaina il 7mdila"

fadia: "enti lina ily 7akali 3anha faisal, it seems you're really good friends"

me: "haha yeah we are"

fadia: "3arfeeni 3ala ur friends with u"

me: "this is my sister sabeecha and my best friend maryam"

fadia: "ta3u 3na soon ok?"

me: "enshala"

and they left

me: "woah"

maryam and sabeecha couldnt stop laughing

we went to the car

mama: "mno hathi?"

me: "khalat il walad"

mama: "t3arfona?"

me: "eh hes our friend mn twitter bs shfna b 360 il7een tithakarna"

i could tell my mom cause she trusts me

mom was convinced but..

mama: "laysh ma t3araft 3alai?"

me:"madree new friend"

maryam: "yaboona inzurhum"

i pinched her

she game me the 'trust me' look

mama: "eh 5an zurhum 3shan at3arf 3alai to make sure hes good"

me: "ok"

i was relieved

my mom doesnt mind me having guys as friends but she needs to get to know them 3shan 'trta7 nafsiyan'

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@LAl_Flani: u never told me ur mom was lebanese

@FAl_Flani: haha well she is

@LAl_Flani: she lives here?

lgafa but i cant let the convo die

@FAl_Flani: no i came to visit my aunt fadia

@LAl_Flani: cool

@FAl_Flani: really, we should meet

@LAl_Flani: sure, and yeah i told my mom

@FAl_Flani: about us?!
@LAl_Flani: yeah well not exactly, that we're friends from twitter

@FAl_Flani: good :* does ur mom have a lebanese number? 3shan my aunt itdig 3alayha

@LAl_Flani: yeah its ***

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aunt fadia called my mom and today we're seeing them..

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Know Regrets- Post 7

this post is dedicated to my silent reader, Dalal. I love u!
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he stared in shock, looked down and walked passed me

my heart felt like it was stabbed, adree eny ghala6t ib 7aga bs i had to

i had to do something, now

before he passed where my mom and sabeecha i ran to him

i whispered: "faisal"

faisal turned and looked at the ground: "now u want to talk to me?"

me: "faisal please let me explain.. fe a7ad ga3d yamk?"

faisal: "l2, ta3alay"

Faisal's Point of View

mabee asami7ha bs a7ibha i want to listen to her bs mabee awareeha ena i care

Lina's Point of View

i walked with him, gladly we weren't anywhere near my mom

i sat next to him

me: "faisal im so sorry i know i broke ur heart but ahmad-"

he interrupted me

faisal: "what about him?"

me: "uh he got mad at me and hes like a brother to me i didnt want to hurt him"

he was quietly thinking

me: "um plus i cant be with a boy, u know im not that type of person but uh i realized how much u meant to me"

faisal: "lina i love u i dont want u to leave me, youre who i want"

me: " thank u, uh likewise"

faisal: "i love u"

i wanted to hug him and forget about all my worries

i held his hand tight

me: "uh um im sorry"

faisal smiled: "no its ok"

me: "i have to go"

i got up and i felt my cheeks they were really hot and i was really shy, i never felt this way before

i went back to where mariam was sitting as i was sitting next to her without going to the bathroom

everyone was asleep

i sat down..

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faisal came running to me and hugged me

faisal: "i love u lina, mabrouk!"

i looked down to find a baby girl in my hands

i held her in my arms, she had my huge light brown eyes and faisals tiny lips

me: "feha mini w minik"

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sabeecha: "LINA GOUMAY W9ALNA!"

me: "ha? ok ok"

it was all a dream

i hated that feeling

i wanted it to be true

u know when u dream and wake up so mad because u thought it was reality? thats how i feel

i wish i never woke up

i got my handbag and headed out of the airplane

as i was walking behind my mom, sister and mariam i got out my phone

i saw many DMs from faisal from the passed two days

@FAl_Flani: Lina!

@FAl_Flani: r u there?

@FAL_Flani: im worried where r u?

@FAl_Flani: i miss you

@FAl_Flani: r u ignoring me?

@FAl_Flani: if thats ur choice

maskeen! how mean am i?

i replied

@LAl_Flani: hey, im sorry. i forgot to tell u how is this gonna go on and ahmad will find out

@FAl_Flani: i know its wrong bs we wont tell him

@FAl_Flani: look up

i did as i was told

i saw faisal getting his bags, he was alone

i couldnt help but smile

i looked away for two second cause i was shy

when i looked back i found a blonde girl looking at him

who the hell is she?

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Know Regrets- Post 6

Hey eyeryone! Im sorry I havent posted please dont be upset! I want to thank my best friend for helping me type this chapter... enjoy xx
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Ahmad walked out of the room furiously not letting me say a word

i remembered everything he said

"entay wa7da ananiya"
"l7agtay faisal mithl il 5arof"
"entay ily l7agti"
" ma3ndch galb e7is ib ay a7ad"
too many hurtful words thrown at me all at once.

i decided to get rid of faisal and 'boys' i dont wanna risk anything..
i dont wanna hurt the ones i love especially someone i consider my brother

i called mariam and sabeecha

they came running into the room

they pulled me into a tight hug and i felt so safe

i broke down my tears fell down

i told them everything and what i wanna do

sabeecha: "saway ily glty u should stop everything a7sanlich.. and safray take a break"

me: "asafir?"

sabeecha: "eh.. i think mama galat bnsafir"

me: "and baba yay wyana?"

sabeecha: "ma a3t8id"

me: "bakalm mama"

i went to our chalet, we're neighbors

i ran up to moms room

me: "mama bakalmch"

mama: "na3am 7bebte?"

me: "why dont we and by we i mean me u and sabeecha go to lbnan aw dubai?

mama: "eh wala ma 3ndna shay"

i got my mac and took it to my mom

me: "mama 7jzay lbnan!"

mama: "mta taboon?"

me: "agrab wakt"

mama: "laysh fech shay?"

me: "la bs baghayr jaw"

mama: "okay shrayich tomorrow?"

me: "ok"

mama: "bs tawni yayeen"

me: "mama please!"

mama: "ok bs 7achay sabeecha"

me: "7achatyt.ha"

mama: "golay 7ag mariam tyi"

i told her and her parents said ok

we booked tickets for 3 days and we went back and took mariam to pack

i didnt talk to faisal at all and i switched off my phone

it hurt but it was my only choice i had to forget boys and care about the ones i love

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Our flight is in an hour, we entered the plane.

we sat until the plane took off and i needed the bathroom

as i was walking in the hallway of the airplane i was face to face to someone..

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Know Regrets- Post 5

Hello i missed u all! I know i haven't posted for a long time and i apologize thats why this post will be the longest i can do :). I disabled my twitter account because there's no use of it. If u need anything; advice, help or anyone to talk to just post it on my ask and i wont publish and ur secret will be between us only. I want to help. ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove  ,, i might come back to twitter but as for now i wont.
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let me act confused

@LAl_Flani: which question?

instantly he DMed me back

@FAl_Flani: do u love me?

yes i do!

@LAl_Flani: i dont like discussing this topic i dont want to be like those people

@FAl_Flani: so u do love me?

this is creepy, maryam is downstairs with everyone and mo ashkara anzilaha ta7at anadeeha when hes with them hes gonna know i need her for this

i didnt answer for 10 minutes

@FAl_Flani: alo?? r u there?

@LAl_Flani: i need to get some sleep, gn

seconds later i heard footsteps outside mariams room

there was a hole in the door because when ahmad was young he was playing with the drill secretly and poked a hole through mariams chalet room door

i could see a brown pupil peeking inside, i could hear someone breathing

me: "mno?"

..: "3abaly btnameen"

me: "uhh ma gdart anam"

..: "can i come in"

i knew who it was

me:  "mno?"

..: "lina la tsta3b6ain tadren ana mno"

me: "faisal?"

faisal: "la 7lfay wala"

me: "yes?"

faisal: "adish?"

me: "im wearing short pyjamas fa l2 and can u stop staring"

i covered myself with the blanket

faisal: "ka gha6aitay nafsch"

me: "stop looking!"

faisal: "enzain enzain, agol 3ndch skype?"

me: "eh"

faisal: " 3yal rday 3ala my question bskype aw DM u choose"

way3 jad way3 im dead

me: "DM"

faisal: "DM it is, goodnight beautiful"

goosebumps :$

me: "goodnight"

my heart was racing

i was soo shy

i looked at  myself in the mirror to find my white, pale face look like it has been painted red

@LAl_Flani: yes ok? happy?

@FAl_Flani: MORE THAN HAPPY <3<3

@LAl_Flani: but faisal

@FAl_Flani: amray

@LAl_Flani:  ma yamir 3laik 3adu, maby relationship

@FAl_Flani: afa mo relationship just messages

@LAl_Flani: l2 magdar ana mo mtrabya chthi

@FAl_Flani: ba76ch b 3aini w 3ala rasy w allah y3lam shkthr a7bch

@LAl_Flani: mashkor bs l2

@FAl_Flani: hatha 8rarch w 5athayti shinsawee

@LAl_Flani: gn

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight ;*

i captured the chat and sent it to mariam and went to sleep

i slept with goosebumps and with a smile on my face

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mariam: "FAY goumay shimsawya entay shimsawya??"

me: "shimsawya?"

mariam: "entay w faisal!"

me: "dazaytlich il chat"

mariam: "7ragtay galb ahmad fay tadren ena y7ibich"

i jumped out of mariams sofa bed

me: "w mn meta uhwa y7ibne? i thought his little crush went away!"

mariam: "hes crazy about u tawa galy cant u see him flirting with u"

me: "hes nothing more than a brother to me!!"

mariam: "he wants to talk to u ill be waiting outside"

me: "wait let me get ready"

i wore my light green cropped jeans with my white flowy shirt and my beige sandals




i applied some light makeup, my light brown eyes popped out and i was ready to go



mariam: "yala 5la9tay?"

me: "eh"

ahmad entered with his head down as mariam left giving me a look that meant 'good luck'

ahmad: "lina ana bagoolich bi5ti9ar, entay tadren eny a7bch w amout fech bs l7agtay faisal mithl il 5arof w ana shft il chat ams, entay wa7da ananiya w ma3ndch galb e7is ib ay a7ad bs t7iben lina w faisal, lina w faisal, w 3ala fkra faisal rfeejy ma ra7 a'6lma l2ana entay ily l7agti"

tears started falling down my eyes naturally

Ouch.

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Know Regrets- Post 4

Please forgive me i know i havent posted in days, feedback @KuwaitTeenLove or ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove sorry :(
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@LAl_Flani: haha good one, sorry i cant

@FAl_Flani: trust me on this one

@LAl_Flani: ok

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight

@LAl_Flani: i will, u too :)

i went to bed not knowing what to do, i had mized emotions i couldnt describe

i loved him but i thought he was being a little too flirty

my alarm waked me up at 3:30 am

i got up, wore a long yellow shirt with black leggings that went down to my ankles

i applied some mascara and left my light brown, caramalish straight hair to fall bellow my shoulders up to my waist

i woke up mariam

me: "mariam goumay"

mariam: "way3a rou7ay ana mo ya ya wyach shaku tgwmeni"

39abt

i walked out

mariam: "lina"

me: "na3am"

mariam: "be careful, i love u L"

me: "i will, love u too M"

those were our silly yet cute nicknames

i went up nervously, clueless of what was gonna happen next

i found faisal with rwo vanilla frappucinos in his tanned, soft hands

faisal: "morning"

me: "hey"

faisal: "tifa'6ilay"

me: "mashkoor"

i found a carpet on the roof that i never saw before

there were daisies on them

faisal: "like my set up? have a seat"

me: "u set this up? wala mratab"

faisal: "mashkora"

he smiled his natural smile

he stared into my pupils

i looked at the ground i was sitting on

me: "um yala please lets finish before anyone sees us"

faisal: "mm ok"

i looked at hime like 'yala!!'

faisal: "lina ana mn awal ma shftch 7baitich dashaitay galby u were like an angel that lit up the whole room i have this thing for u, ur caramel hair and eyes, ur warm heart i just cant stop thinking about u if u wanna run away go ahead ill understand"

he was talking so fast imbayen he was nervous

i was shocked all those words at once from the guy who ive been crushing on for two WHOLE months that didnt know i existed now loves me?

me: "thank u for sharing ur feelings i need to go now"

i wanted to stay i wanted to keep staring into his eyes, i wanted to be loved i wanted to know that someone out there loves me but i was speechless, absolutely speechless




faisal: "lina wait"

he stared at the ground he didnt make eye contact

he didnt even touch me

i turned around

me: "yes?"

faisal: "how do u feel about me?"

suddenly i felt dizzy

i felt like the world was gonna end

only people who were in love would know this feeling

i had no idea hat to say

i didnt wanna make a fool of myself

i heard a car park

thank God i was saved

me: "i need to go they came"

i left my drink without even touching it

as i left i got a glimpse of what faisal was doing

he was holding my drink in one hand and a daisy in another


maybe he really did love me.. maybe he will be the one why am i overthinking again?

i went down to find my family and mariams family

i said my hellos but i wasnt conscious because of all the overthinking

i ran up the stairs and found ahmad

ahmad: "shfeech shfeech?"

me: "ha? la wala shay"

i ran to mariams room

she was putting her make up on

mariam: "5air?"

i told her everything

mariam: "rday 3al 9bay na6rch masken! y7bich 7ram 3alaych!"

i thought about what she said

the day finished really quickly i didnt know who i was with and who i talked to my mind was blown away

it felt like i was dreaming

tana7t

everyone was like: "lina shfeech mo wyana?"

me: "t3bana w bs ma feeny shay"

i went to bed at 9:00pm sharp

i left my phone on the bed and went to the bathroom while everyone was down together having fun, making jokes, telling stories

when i jumped on my bed after wearing my pjs the red light was flashing on my blackberry

i unlocked it to find the little birdy on the top right corner

i opened twitter and it was a DM

@FAl_Flani: you didnt answer my question, theres no escaping now..

what am i supposed to say?

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i hope u enjoyed xx i promise ill post daily from now on after today unless im really busy ;*

Know Regrets- Post 3

sorry i was late i was really busy. goodluck everyone whos still doing their exams xx allah ywafigkum x im gonna try to make this as long as possible cause i dont have anything today :D enjoy x
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 i ignored like i was asleep..

the next morning i woke up to an alarm @ 6:30 am

i didnt put the alarm

i opened my phone to close the alarm and what did i see?

meet me on the roof  -faisal

6:30 am

 (alarm)


maybe he needed something, why not? w 3ayb itha sa2alni laysh ma yet shagola? or u know what i can pretend i pressed dimiss without reading cause i was tired.. yes thats what i will do! im tempted to go to him but im really shy and nervous especially cause its morning and no-ones there to protect me or be there for me. what if someone sees us?

the hamsters in my brain were running and running

go back to sleep lina, u have an excuse

i fell into deep sleep, it was amazing <3

mariam: "LINA WAY3A GOUMAY!"

me: "ha? cham ilsa3a?"

mariam: "il sa3a 1 w entay ma gmtay!"

me: "why didnt u wake me up?"

mariam: "ma tfhmen? i was waking u up for ages tawich tgoumen!"

me: "yaw il ahal?"

mariam: "l2 byoun bacher mistansen bl dera 3ndhum 3rs"

me: "ahh ok ta3alay ma gltlch"

i told her about the alarm

mariam: "uff chathaba mta 5atha telephonich?"

me: "thats what im gonna find out"

mariam was wearing a green abercrombie shirt with yellow free city pants, she had her hair tied in a bun

i decided to wear my abercrombie shorts and orange cancun baggy shirt

i let my long, wavy, light brown hair fall bellow my shoulders to match with my eyes

i applied a little mascara and lip gloss and i was ready to go

mariam was no where to be found

when i went down the stairs i bumped into faisal

i was about to fall forward

he held my body

i moved away

faisal: "ahh sorry"

me: "ha la 3di thanks"

i smiled at him and i got lost staring at his pupils

faisal: "um lina r u okay?"

my face got red like an apple i was so embarrassed!

me: "yes of course im okay what makes u think that im not okay haha um okay"

*when i get embarrassed and nervous i talk a lot to hide myself but it doesnt really work out

i walked down while he walked up

faisal: "ta3alay lina didnt u get an alarm @ 6:30"

me: "umm eh embala bs ma chayakt bs 76ayt dismiss"

faisal: "aha"

me: "laysh? baghait shay?"

faisal: "la bs knt abee i meet u bl sa67"

me: "fee shay muhim wdk tgola?"

faisal: "ehh"

me: "ok il7een?"

faisal: "ehh l2ana mariam w ahmad ra7aw yishtiroon aghra'6 mn il jam3iya w 5alooni hni 3shan laman tgomen ma t5afen""

me: "aha ok"

faisal: "yala ta3alay il 9la bakalmich"

we went

faisal: "lina tara um madree shlon agolich bs"

me: "faisal gol youre scaring the hell out of me"

meanwhile mariam and ahmad rushed in

ahmad: "morning sleepy head lina!"

me: "um hey"

i was so disappointed jed i wanted to hear what he had to say, i wanted to be with him all alone, i love him

ahmad: "ybnalikum 5afayif mn il jm3iya!"

faisal: "thanks 3d e7na yowa3a zain yibtlna akel"

ahmad: shft i read ur mind

he winked

mtwa'6i3 3ajib!

ahmad: "lina.. i bought u maltesers ice cream ur favorite!"

 me: "how do u know?"

ahmad: "childhood memories, they were great, miss them and miss being friends now youre just friends with mariam"

me: "we'll always be friends ahmad!"

i could see faisal moving in his seat feeling uncomfortable

i could almost see the smoke from his ears

i could see the jealousy in his eyes

did he love me?

i went to bed , expecting a DM from faisal

i kept my phone loud

i couldnt wait any longer

i sent a DM

@LAl_Flani: hey faisal, i was wondering how u took my phone and put an alarm

instantly i got a DM back

@FAl_Flani: u left ur phone on the table unlocked when u went to walk outside so it was my chance, im sorry i know it was rude

@LAl_Flani: i hope u didnt look at my pictures fee 9war banat

@FAl_Flani: dont worry i didnt and i didnt even think of doing it

@LAl_Flani: (y)

 @FAl_Flani: we have to talk tomorrow early morning at 4 meet me on the roof

akhh <3 what i was waiting for

@LAl_Flani: no faisal, what if someone sees us?

@FAl_Flani: ill protect u <3

  
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