Know Regrets- Post 9

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I got ready swiftly

I applied my usual mascara and red lipstick

I wore a marvelous long blue dress that fit my body perfectly

I put my hair up in a fine bun

I was ready to go but I was very timid

Everyone was ready waiting for me in the lobby while I was in the room I shared with Maryam

As I approached my mother, Sabeecha and Maryam my mother smiled

Mama: "alla y7af'6ch my daughter you're gorgeous"

Sabeecha: "ehm"

Me and Maryam burst out laughing

Mama: "both of you and Maryouma"

Maryam: "mashkora khalti"

We stopped a cab and he drove us there

My heart was beating, I was really nervous

My mom paid the driver and we got out

They're house was luxurious, it was large

Suddenly a white door opened and there was Aunt Fadia, Faisal and a younger version of Aunt Fadia but Aunt Fadia was young, in her 30's

Aunt Fadia: "mar7aba! nawar mitil ma y2ule lkuwaitiya"

We chuckled

Mama: "bwjoudch 7abebte"

We said our hellos, clueless of how many kisses we should give, we did what Aunt Fadia did and kissed 3 times, one cheek at a time

Faisal: "hala khalti, hala banat"

He kept looking down

Now thats respect

Aunt Fadia: "Faisal 3arifhun 3a Julia"

Faisal: "hathy Julia khalti bs mn 3umurna"

She gave us a forced and rejecting smile

Faisal: "tfa'6ilaw"

As I was walking into the living room Julia gave me a death stare

Do I even know you?

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second post today, im bored so im writing. just so u guys know if you're a hater i dont write for u i write for people who wanna read and i write to be happy. enjoy x
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she looked so young and beautiful

was faisal cheating on me?

lina stop it, you're barely together

but he told me he loves me

i have to stop overthinking

me: "maryam tkfain shofay! mno hathy ma3a faisal?"

maryam turned around: "ambai! ma yndara bs be positive!"

mama: "lina! maryam! mno hatha ily t5zoona?"

oh snap

me: "wa7d kuwaiti"

mama: "fe alf kuwaiti ma laysh hatha blthat?

maryam: "khalti hatha wa7d chna shayfeena b 360, ma 3alaih 5an 5ali9"

lifesaver <3

i shook the thought out of my head and helped get the bags while my mom went to the taxi

as i was going out..

faisal: "lina meet my aunt fadia"

sabeecha and mariamwere with me, he was fine with them knowing about us

me: "uh hi"

fadia: "mar7aba keefik?"

me: "zaina il 7mdila"

fadia: "enti lina ily 7akali 3anha faisal, it seems you're really good friends"

me: "haha yeah we are"

fadia: "3arfeeni 3ala ur friends with u"

me: "this is my sister sabeecha and my best friend maryam"

fadia: "ta3u 3na soon ok?"

me: "enshala"

and they left

me: "woah"

maryam and sabeecha couldnt stop laughing

we went to the car

mama: "mno hathi?"

me: "khalat il walad"

mama: "t3arfona?"

me: "eh hes our friend mn twitter bs shfna b 360 il7een tithakarna"

i could tell my mom cause she trusts me

mom was convinced but..

mama: "laysh ma t3araft 3alai?"

me:"madree new friend"

maryam: "yaboona inzurhum"

i pinched her

she game me the 'trust me' look

mama: "eh 5an zurhum 3shan at3arf 3alai to make sure hes good"

me: "ok"

i was relieved

my mom doesnt mind me having guys as friends but she needs to get to know them 3shan 'trta7 nafsiyan'

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@LAl_Flani: u never told me ur mom was lebanese

@FAl_Flani: haha well she is

@LAl_Flani: she lives here?

lgafa but i cant let the convo die

@FAl_Flani: no i came to visit my aunt fadia

@LAl_Flani: cool

@FAl_Flani: really, we should meet

@LAl_Flani: sure, and yeah i told my mom

@FAl_Flani: about us?!
@LAl_Flani: yeah well not exactly, that we're friends from twitter

@FAl_Flani: good :* does ur mom have a lebanese number? 3shan my aunt itdig 3alayha

@LAl_Flani: yeah its ***

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aunt fadia called my mom and today we're seeing them..

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Know Regrets- Post 7

this post is dedicated to my silent reader, Dalal. I love u!
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he stared in shock, looked down and walked passed me

my heart felt like it was stabbed, adree eny ghala6t ib 7aga bs i had to

i had to do something, now

before he passed where my mom and sabeecha i ran to him

i whispered: "faisal"

faisal turned and looked at the ground: "now u want to talk to me?"

me: "faisal please let me explain.. fe a7ad ga3d yamk?"

faisal: "l2, ta3alay"

Faisal's Point of View

mabee asami7ha bs a7ibha i want to listen to her bs mabee awareeha ena i care

Lina's Point of View

i walked with him, gladly we weren't anywhere near my mom

i sat next to him

me: "faisal im so sorry i know i broke ur heart but ahmad-"

he interrupted me

faisal: "what about him?"

me: "uh he got mad at me and hes like a brother to me i didnt want to hurt him"

he was quietly thinking

me: "um plus i cant be with a boy, u know im not that type of person but uh i realized how much u meant to me"

faisal: "lina i love u i dont want u to leave me, youre who i want"

me: " thank u, uh likewise"

faisal: "i love u"

i wanted to hug him and forget about all my worries

i held his hand tight

me: "uh um im sorry"

faisal smiled: "no its ok"

me: "i have to go"

i got up and i felt my cheeks they were really hot and i was really shy, i never felt this way before

i went back to where mariam was sitting as i was sitting next to her without going to the bathroom

everyone was asleep

i sat down..

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faisal came running to me and hugged me

faisal: "i love u lina, mabrouk!"

i looked down to find a baby girl in my hands

i held her in my arms, she had my huge light brown eyes and faisals tiny lips

me: "feha mini w minik"

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sabeecha: "LINA GOUMAY W9ALNA!"

me: "ha? ok ok"

it was all a dream

i hated that feeling

i wanted it to be true

u know when u dream and wake up so mad because u thought it was reality? thats how i feel

i wish i never woke up

i got my handbag and headed out of the airplane

as i was walking behind my mom, sister and mariam i got out my phone

i saw many DMs from faisal from the passed two days

@FAl_Flani: Lina!

@FAl_Flani: r u there?

@FAL_Flani: im worried where r u?

@FAl_Flani: i miss you

@FAl_Flani: r u ignoring me?

@FAl_Flani: if thats ur choice

maskeen! how mean am i?

i replied

@LAl_Flani: hey, im sorry. i forgot to tell u how is this gonna go on and ahmad will find out

@FAl_Flani: i know its wrong bs we wont tell him

@FAl_Flani: look up

i did as i was told

i saw faisal getting his bags, he was alone

i couldnt help but smile

i looked away for two second cause i was shy

when i looked back i found a blonde girl looking at him

who the hell is she?

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Know Regrets- Post 6

Hey eyeryone! Im sorry I havent posted please dont be upset! I want to thank my best friend for helping me type this chapter... enjoy xx
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Ahmad walked out of the room furiously not letting me say a word

i remembered everything he said

"entay wa7da ananiya"
"l7agtay faisal mithl il 5arof"
"entay ily l7agti"
" ma3ndch galb e7is ib ay a7ad"
too many hurtful words thrown at me all at once.

i decided to get rid of faisal and 'boys' i dont wanna risk anything..
i dont wanna hurt the ones i love especially someone i consider my brother

i called mariam and sabeecha

they came running into the room

they pulled me into a tight hug and i felt so safe

i broke down my tears fell down

i told them everything and what i wanna do

sabeecha: "saway ily glty u should stop everything a7sanlich.. and safray take a break"

me: "asafir?"

sabeecha: "eh.. i think mama galat bnsafir"

me: "and baba yay wyana?"

sabeecha: "ma a3t8id"

me: "bakalm mama"

i went to our chalet, we're neighbors

i ran up to moms room

me: "mama bakalmch"

mama: "na3am 7bebte?"

me: "why dont we and by we i mean me u and sabeecha go to lbnan aw dubai?

mama: "eh wala ma 3ndna shay"

i got my mac and took it to my mom

me: "mama 7jzay lbnan!"

mama: "mta taboon?"

me: "agrab wakt"

mama: "laysh fech shay?"

me: "la bs baghayr jaw"

mama: "okay shrayich tomorrow?"

me: "ok"

mama: "bs tawni yayeen"

me: "mama please!"

mama: "ok bs 7achay sabeecha"

me: "7achatyt.ha"

mama: "golay 7ag mariam tyi"

i told her and her parents said ok

we booked tickets for 3 days and we went back and took mariam to pack

i didnt talk to faisal at all and i switched off my phone

it hurt but it was my only choice i had to forget boys and care about the ones i love

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Our flight is in an hour, we entered the plane.

we sat until the plane took off and i needed the bathroom

as i was walking in the hallway of the airplane i was face to face to someone..

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Know Regrets- Post 5

Hello i missed u all! I know i haven't posted for a long time and i apologize thats why this post will be the longest i can do :). I disabled my twitter account because there's no use of it. If u need anything; advice, help or anyone to talk to just post it on my ask and i wont publish and ur secret will be between us only. I want to help. ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove  ,, i might come back to twitter but as for now i wont.
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let me act confused

@LAl_Flani: which question?

instantly he DMed me back

@FAl_Flani: do u love me?

yes i do!

@LAl_Flani: i dont like discussing this topic i dont want to be like those people

@FAl_Flani: so u do love me?

this is creepy, maryam is downstairs with everyone and mo ashkara anzilaha ta7at anadeeha when hes with them hes gonna know i need her for this

i didnt answer for 10 minutes

@FAl_Flani: alo?? r u there?

@LAl_Flani: i need to get some sleep, gn

seconds later i heard footsteps outside mariams room

there was a hole in the door because when ahmad was young he was playing with the drill secretly and poked a hole through mariams chalet room door

i could see a brown pupil peeking inside, i could hear someone breathing

me: "mno?"

..: "3abaly btnameen"

me: "uhh ma gdart anam"

..: "can i come in"

i knew who it was

me:  "mno?"

..: "lina la tsta3b6ain tadren ana mno"

me: "faisal?"

faisal: "la 7lfay wala"

me: "yes?"

faisal: "adish?"

me: "im wearing short pyjamas fa l2 and can u stop staring"

i covered myself with the blanket

faisal: "ka gha6aitay nafsch"

me: "stop looking!"

faisal: "enzain enzain, agol 3ndch skype?"

me: "eh"

faisal: " 3yal rday 3ala my question bskype aw DM u choose"

way3 jad way3 im dead

me: "DM"

faisal: "DM it is, goodnight beautiful"

goosebumps :$

me: "goodnight"

my heart was racing

i was soo shy

i looked at  myself in the mirror to find my white, pale face look like it has been painted red

@LAl_Flani: yes ok? happy?

@FAl_Flani: MORE THAN HAPPY <3<3

@LAl_Flani: but faisal

@FAl_Flani: amray

@LAl_Flani:  ma yamir 3laik 3adu, maby relationship

@FAl_Flani: afa mo relationship just messages

@LAl_Flani: l2 magdar ana mo mtrabya chthi

@FAl_Flani: ba76ch b 3aini w 3ala rasy w allah y3lam shkthr a7bch

@LAl_Flani: mashkor bs l2

@FAl_Flani: hatha 8rarch w 5athayti shinsawee

@LAl_Flani: gn

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight ;*

i captured the chat and sent it to mariam and went to sleep

i slept with goosebumps and with a smile on my face

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mariam: "FAY goumay shimsawya entay shimsawya??"

me: "shimsawya?"

mariam: "entay w faisal!"

me: "dazaytlich il chat"

mariam: "7ragtay galb ahmad fay tadren ena y7ibich"

i jumped out of mariams sofa bed

me: "w mn meta uhwa y7ibne? i thought his little crush went away!"

mariam: "hes crazy about u tawa galy cant u see him flirting with u"

me: "hes nothing more than a brother to me!!"

mariam: "he wants to talk to u ill be waiting outside"

me: "wait let me get ready"

i wore my light green cropped jeans with my white flowy shirt and my beige sandals




i applied some light makeup, my light brown eyes popped out and i was ready to go



mariam: "yala 5la9tay?"

me: "eh"

ahmad entered with his head down as mariam left giving me a look that meant 'good luck'

ahmad: "lina ana bagoolich bi5ti9ar, entay tadren eny a7bch w amout fech bs l7agtay faisal mithl il 5arof w ana shft il chat ams, entay wa7da ananiya w ma3ndch galb e7is ib ay a7ad bs t7iben lina w faisal, lina w faisal, w 3ala fkra faisal rfeejy ma ra7 a'6lma l2ana entay ily l7agti"

tears started falling down my eyes naturally

Ouch.

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Know Regrets- Post 4

Please forgive me i know i havent posted in days, feedback @KuwaitTeenLove or ask.fm/KuwaitTeenLove sorry :(
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@LAl_Flani: haha good one, sorry i cant

@FAl_Flani: trust me on this one

@LAl_Flani: ok

@FAl_Flani: sleep tight

@LAl_Flani: i will, u too :)

i went to bed not knowing what to do, i had mized emotions i couldnt describe

i loved him but i thought he was being a little too flirty

my alarm waked me up at 3:30 am

i got up, wore a long yellow shirt with black leggings that went down to my ankles

i applied some mascara and left my light brown, caramalish straight hair to fall bellow my shoulders up to my waist

i woke up mariam

me: "mariam goumay"

mariam: "way3a rou7ay ana mo ya ya wyach shaku tgwmeni"

39abt

i walked out

mariam: "lina"

me: "na3am"

mariam: "be careful, i love u L"

me: "i will, love u too M"

those were our silly yet cute nicknames

i went up nervously, clueless of what was gonna happen next

i found faisal with rwo vanilla frappucinos in his tanned, soft hands

faisal: "morning"

me: "hey"

faisal: "tifa'6ilay"

me: "mashkoor"

i found a carpet on the roof that i never saw before

there were daisies on them

faisal: "like my set up? have a seat"

me: "u set this up? wala mratab"

faisal: "mashkora"

he smiled his natural smile

he stared into my pupils

i looked at the ground i was sitting on

me: "um yala please lets finish before anyone sees us"

faisal: "mm ok"

i looked at hime like 'yala!!'

faisal: "lina ana mn awal ma shftch 7baitich dashaitay galby u were like an angel that lit up the whole room i have this thing for u, ur caramel hair and eyes, ur warm heart i just cant stop thinking about u if u wanna run away go ahead ill understand"

he was talking so fast imbayen he was nervous

i was shocked all those words at once from the guy who ive been crushing on for two WHOLE months that didnt know i existed now loves me?

me: "thank u for sharing ur feelings i need to go now"

i wanted to stay i wanted to keep staring into his eyes, i wanted to be loved i wanted to know that someone out there loves me but i was speechless, absolutely speechless




faisal: "lina wait"

he stared at the ground he didnt make eye contact

he didnt even touch me

i turned around

me: "yes?"

faisal: "how do u feel about me?"

suddenly i felt dizzy

i felt like the world was gonna end

only people who were in love would know this feeling

i had no idea hat to say

i didnt wanna make a fool of myself

i heard a car park

thank God i was saved

me: "i need to go they came"

i left my drink without even touching it

as i left i got a glimpse of what faisal was doing

he was holding my drink in one hand and a daisy in another


maybe he really did love me.. maybe he will be the one why am i overthinking again?

i went down to find my family and mariams family

i said my hellos but i wasnt conscious because of all the overthinking

i ran up the stairs and found ahmad

ahmad: "shfeech shfeech?"

me: "ha? la wala shay"

i ran to mariams room

she was putting her make up on

mariam: "5air?"

i told her everything

mariam: "rday 3al 9bay na6rch masken! y7bich 7ram 3alaych!"

i thought about what she said

the day finished really quickly i didnt know who i was with and who i talked to my mind was blown away

it felt like i was dreaming

tana7t

everyone was like: "lina shfeech mo wyana?"

me: "t3bana w bs ma feeny shay"

i went to bed at 9:00pm sharp

i left my phone on the bed and went to the bathroom while everyone was down together having fun, making jokes, telling stories

when i jumped on my bed after wearing my pjs the red light was flashing on my blackberry

i unlocked it to find the little birdy on the top right corner

i opened twitter and it was a DM

@FAl_Flani: you didnt answer my question, theres no escaping now..

what am i supposed to say?

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i hope u enjoyed xx i promise ill post daily from now on after today unless im really busy ;*

Know Regrets- Post 3

sorry i was late i was really busy. goodluck everyone whos still doing their exams xx allah ywafigkum x im gonna try to make this as long as possible cause i dont have anything today :D enjoy x
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 i ignored like i was asleep..

the next morning i woke up to an alarm @ 6:30 am

i didnt put the alarm

i opened my phone to close the alarm and what did i see?

meet me on the roof  -faisal

6:30 am

 (alarm)


maybe he needed something, why not? w 3ayb itha sa2alni laysh ma yet shagola? or u know what i can pretend i pressed dimiss without reading cause i was tired.. yes thats what i will do! im tempted to go to him but im really shy and nervous especially cause its morning and no-ones there to protect me or be there for me. what if someone sees us?

the hamsters in my brain were running and running

go back to sleep lina, u have an excuse

i fell into deep sleep, it was amazing <3

mariam: "LINA WAY3A GOUMAY!"

me: "ha? cham ilsa3a?"

mariam: "il sa3a 1 w entay ma gmtay!"

me: "why didnt u wake me up?"

mariam: "ma tfhmen? i was waking u up for ages tawich tgoumen!"

me: "yaw il ahal?"

mariam: "l2 byoun bacher mistansen bl dera 3ndhum 3rs"

me: "ahh ok ta3alay ma gltlch"

i told her about the alarm

mariam: "uff chathaba mta 5atha telephonich?"

me: "thats what im gonna find out"

mariam was wearing a green abercrombie shirt with yellow free city pants, she had her hair tied in a bun

i decided to wear my abercrombie shorts and orange cancun baggy shirt

i let my long, wavy, light brown hair fall bellow my shoulders to match with my eyes

i applied a little mascara and lip gloss and i was ready to go

mariam was no where to be found

when i went down the stairs i bumped into faisal

i was about to fall forward

he held my body

i moved away

faisal: "ahh sorry"

me: "ha la 3di thanks"

i smiled at him and i got lost staring at his pupils

faisal: "um lina r u okay?"

my face got red like an apple i was so embarrassed!

me: "yes of course im okay what makes u think that im not okay haha um okay"

*when i get embarrassed and nervous i talk a lot to hide myself but it doesnt really work out

i walked down while he walked up

faisal: "ta3alay lina didnt u get an alarm @ 6:30"

me: "umm eh embala bs ma chayakt bs 76ayt dismiss"

faisal: "aha"

me: "laysh? baghait shay?"

faisal: "la bs knt abee i meet u bl sa67"

me: "fee shay muhim wdk tgola?"

faisal: "ehh"

me: "ok il7een?"

faisal: "ehh l2ana mariam w ahmad ra7aw yishtiroon aghra'6 mn il jam3iya w 5alooni hni 3shan laman tgomen ma t5afen""

me: "aha ok"

faisal: "yala ta3alay il 9la bakalmich"

we went

faisal: "lina tara um madree shlon agolich bs"

me: "faisal gol youre scaring the hell out of me"

meanwhile mariam and ahmad rushed in

ahmad: "morning sleepy head lina!"

me: "um hey"

i was so disappointed jed i wanted to hear what he had to say, i wanted to be with him all alone, i love him

ahmad: "ybnalikum 5afayif mn il jm3iya!"

faisal: "thanks 3d e7na yowa3a zain yibtlna akel"

ahmad: shft i read ur mind

he winked

mtwa'6i3 3ajib!

ahmad: "lina.. i bought u maltesers ice cream ur favorite!"

 me: "how do u know?"

ahmad: "childhood memories, they were great, miss them and miss being friends now youre just friends with mariam"

me: "we'll always be friends ahmad!"

i could see faisal moving in his seat feeling uncomfortable

i could almost see the smoke from his ears

i could see the jealousy in his eyes

did he love me?

i went to bed , expecting a DM from faisal

i kept my phone loud

i couldnt wait any longer

i sent a DM

@LAl_Flani: hey faisal, i was wondering how u took my phone and put an alarm

instantly i got a DM back

@FAl_Flani: u left ur phone on the table unlocked when u went to walk outside so it was my chance, im sorry i know it was rude

@LAl_Flani: i hope u didnt look at my pictures fee 9war banat

@FAl_Flani: dont worry i didnt and i didnt even think of doing it

@LAl_Flani: (y)

 @FAl_Flani: we have to talk tomorrow early morning at 4 meet me on the roof

akhh <3 what i was waiting for

@LAl_Flani: no faisal, what if someone sees us?

@FAl_Flani: ill protect u <3

  
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Know Regrets- Post 2

mariam: "hi ana i5t ahmad w hathy my friend lina"

faisal: "hi" , with a smile on his face

mariam noticed that i was staring in shock

mariam: "i7na bnrou7 fog inraye7"

ahmad: "shd3wa g3do m3ana taw inas we're alone"

mariam: "l2 3di m t3baneen shway"

she grabbed me by the arm and pulled me upstairs

we got in the room and i was standing like a freak

mariam: "lina! sit down"

mariam: "mo hatha faisal the guy u had a crush on?"

me: "eh, i never thought i'd see him after 2 months of crushing on him"

ive found him on twitter and had a crush on him, he never knew i existed

mariam: "il7een be happy u found him"

me: " i am bs ena ma twa83t eny bshoufa"

after 5 minutes of talking ahmad rushed into our room

mariam: "ahmad ma tsti7e what if we were changing?"

ahmad: "bs u arent"

Ahmad and Mariam had a strong, cute relationship. She'd tell him anything and he'd tell her anything no matter what. Even if she was dating she would tell him, he would try to pull her away but he wouldn't hit her or get mad at her. I always wished I'd have a brother like Ahmad but I just have an older sister who I tell everything, Sabeecha, she's awesome. We're just a year apart ( she's 17), she graduated hal sina.

ahmad: "come sit with us girls maleena"

Ahmad was very open-minded ma kan efakir ena wala hathol banat 3eb yg3don ma3a 9byan, I like people like him, they're really wise.

me: "emshay maryoum lets go"

we went down

faisal: "wenkum sa3a?"

ahmad: "8a9abt'hum iyoun"

faisal: "kafo"

we watched a movie called '17 Again' it was an old movie non of us watched

me: "ambay zac efron is soo hot!"

faisal: "we3 ana a7la mna"

mariam: "the8a"

faisal: "eh"

he blushed

he was so cute when he blushed, his white skin turned red like an apple

suddenly i fell asleep

i woke up to something ticking my nose

me: " yal 7meer shitsawoon feeni?"

they were ticking my nose with a feather and had mens shaving foam on my hand so i could touch my nose and get foam all over it

me: "ana 3alimkum"

we all laughed

everyone went to their rooms

me: "ya7leela faisal"

mariam: "eh"

me: "hes mine"

mariam: "dont worry he is"

I LOVE HER!<3

i got a mention

@AAl_Flani: had so much fun today w' @FAl_Flani @MAl_Flani @LAl_Flani #muchlove

i got a new follower

@FAl_Flani has requested to follow you on twitter (my account was private)

me: "maryoum he wants to follow me!"
 

mariam: "accept like a friend and follow him!" 

I got a DM

@FAl_Flani: hey, had great fun with u <3

whats up with the heart?

@LAl_Flani: me too x

@FAl_Flani: cant wait to see u tomorrow

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Know Regrets- Post 1

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ring ring ring

me: "alo?"

mariam: "lina ana bara na6ritich sa3a laysh ma yetay? yala youre ruining the first day of our last summer before senior year!"

me: "bismilla kalayteeni yala ya ya!"

Maryoum is my best friend, tifhamni. when I'm upset shes there, I dont know how she just is. she makes me laugh when im down, she makes me smile. I've known her since I was two when our mothers were doing their masters in London and they met. Our families are really close<3.

We left to julai3a where her brother, ahmad was. Her family and my family weren't coming until the next day.

Ahmad has had a crush on me since I was young, I haven't seen him in ages, he just came back from uni in California. He's 19 (he decided to finish his studies at KU) while we are 16.

Ahmad: "lina! kibarna wala mi7lawa."

me: "hello to u too"

i blushed

he had a simple, muscular body with wavy hair down to the middle of his ear

mariam: "ahmad fee a7ad wiyak?"

ahmad: "ehh bs rfeejy faisal"

faisal: "hala, ana faisal"

my eyes grew wide, my face became pale

mariam noticed and nudged me

Faisal? ma ghaira?
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Know Regrets- Intro

Hey guys Im back!Im gonna make a bigger and better story, I hope you enjoy. The story before wasn't fully true just some parts happened in my life. This story is 99% fiction. Enjoy and help me get readers x Also if you're upset, down or need advice im always here, i wont tell anyone you can come DM me.

Chapter 36

this chapter is dedicated to my beautiful friend: @sabachaALH enjoy x ...

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so we followed him and he took us to the first row with mama

we were surprised

katy was in front of us

we talk to her and the show started

it was so romantic, nasser gave me a Cartier ring from the love collection the gold one with the diamond

a555 i love it its si beautiful

5ala9na il concert and katy 3a6at each married couple 100 dollars to have fun

kan 7da wanasa it was a night to remember

even mama danced and sang along! =))

a week passed and we got back to kuwait

i did my wedding i was very nervous

i invited nicole , she came

me: dalool ana 5ayfa 7eel

dalal: stansay its ur night! YOLO

i was laughing a lot

me: a7bch

mama came w 6b3an she was crying a river

the night went by so fast, i had so much fun

nicole: u look pretty! i love u!

me: thanks nicole! u look pretty too

when nasser was supposed to come all the colorful dresses turned black

fj2a everyone was wearing their abayas lol iit was weird it changed from colorful to dull

nicole gave me a look ena why did the 9la turn black

i told dalal to talk to her


dalal: hey im fays best friend


nicole: hiya!


dalal: they r covering up thats all


nicole: ohh should i?


dalal laughed: its up to u

nasser came to me kissed my head and sat down

nasser: hala bl zain sh'hal jamal ya 7lwa

and i was surprised to see baba

i looked to my right and found mama not covered up

me: mama! mama lash mo labsa 7jabch

mama: ana w ubouch tizawjna

me: w lash ma gltole

mama: 3shan tntabhain b3rsch, 2 in 1!

me: mabrok mama w baba

baba kissed my head

baba: mabrok ya bnayte sam7eni 3ala kl shay

the night was over

allaaaah it was unbelievable

the next night was dalal and khaleds milcha

dalal: fayou ana 5ayfa

me: wa a5eran 7saitay bsh3ure

i had to go down 7g il guests

when she went down i guided her

i love her 3eny dami3at

when khaled came in i wanted to go hug him bs may9er hes not my brother

7abebe 7sbat o5ouy wayed mstansa lhum

i went to him and held his hand

me: mabrok

people were staring nut at least dalal knew ena hes like my brother and ena we grew up in the same house together

wayed estansna w 5athayna break min uni

everyday i would go out with dalal

me: dalool ma tben 3rs?

dalal: l2 ana w khaled 8rrna ma naby we wanted a simple mlcha

me: ok good

days passed we went to america and finished our studies

we graduated and mama, baba, khaled, dalal came to see us

we went out for lunch then the next week back to kuwait

i started feeling sick and tired

kl yoom azaw3

nasser: shfech?

me: madre

my mother came

mama: fay 7abibte tnasain?

me: umm mama wala madre

staghrabt

nmt ib baitna wiya mama w nasser

baba: fay nayma 3ndna ilyoom?

me: ehh baba

mama: a7is'ha tnasa

baba: enshala golaw amen!

all of us: amen

the next morning mama woke me up

mama: fayoun mama gomay ybtlch pregnancy test

fazait w r7t chayakt

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it was positive

me: MAMA, NASSER, BABA... ANA 7AMEL!

they were all so happy

i told all my family and friends

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9 months later

my due date garb i didnt work nasser was working kan wayed 5ayf 3lai w3adne after my pregnancy i work

me: OUCH! MAMA! NASSER! BABA! HOSPITAL!

 i went i was happy to find mama, nasser and dalal by my side

me: mama wayn bnte?

mama: kahe

i instantly fell in love, my beautiful own daughter i started crying

i was ready to start a new life, me and my family, right here in kuwait..

THE END!

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Chapter 35

JLo

Me: mama shofay its JLo!

Jlo: umm yes?

Me: hi! I cant believe its actually u

Kanat labsa disguise na’6ara akbr mn wayiha w baseball cap w a huge hoodie

JLo: yeah its me don’t make a big deal please I don’t want the paps after me

Me: ok don’t worry can I just take a picture

JLo: yes of course

We let the cashier e9awrny ana w mama wiyaha

Il7mdlla ma kan fee a7ad in the ma7al

JLo: so where r u from

Mama: Kuwait

JLo: cool it was great meeting u

Me: it was great meeting u

Lamait’ha

Ktbt pm: just met JLo !:D

I got two pings

Dalal: u met her??

Me: ehh

Dalal: 7ath! Umbay wdy ashoufha

Me: bad luck :)

The second ping kanat mn laya

Laya: salmeely 3alaiha

Me: lol ra7at

Laya: where did u see her

Me: dress store

Laya: aha

Lafaina w lafaina w ham ma lgaina dress

Mama: shrayech en5ay6lch a dress?

Me: eh walal lash ma fakarna feha

R7na ma7al their dresses nafs my style

Me: hello, do u design dresses for customers?

Lady: hi oh yes we do

Me: I want to design my wedding dress

Lady: ok sure show me what u want and our designer will design it and for u know he has designed red carpet dresses for taylor swift, khloe kardashian and many more

Me: great

Risamtlaha my perfect wedding dress

Lady: I’ll get back to u as soon as I can

When we got home

Nasser: u met JLo?

Me: yes

Nasser: ya 7athich wala

Me: adree

Mama: afa 3laik ana 9wart wiyaha

Nasser: yah yah

Mama: imshaw nrou7 thai restaurant

Nasser: la khalti walahna 3ala 6bakhich

Mama: enshala mn 3youne il7een asawe lkum m6abag zbaidy

My mother is famous in our family mn her m6abag zbaidy

Me: allah allah itha taben mos3da goleli

Me: 3ad 3ndch il ashya2

Mama: afa 3alaikum ana ansa ayeb mn lkuwait il ashya2 7g 6bakhi

Sawat il akl w kalaina

We were like a tiny family nshaweg

Ba3ad ma khala9na ma 3rfna shnsawee

Me: shraykum nrou7 concert? Katy perry is coming to florida

Mama: haw w ana aye?

Me: eh mama 3eshay 7ayatich

Lgait tickets bl front row 7jazna

3 days later

Me: time for the concert

Rkabna nassers new car and we were on our way

Bbm

Me: dalol!

Dalal: ha?

Me: im omw katy perrys concert

Dalal: tadren iny ma wa6nha have fun

Me: maskena we will thanks

We were early

Guy at the door: r u a married couple?

Me: yes

Guy: and she is probably ur mother?

Me: yes

Guy: may I see ur tickets

We showed him

Guy: married couple follow me..

Chapter 34

staghrabt

il9ot mo ghareeb 3alai klish

Me: mno?

..: ana abdullah

i didnt know what to do jad knt 7ady 5ayfa

shb9er baina w bain nasser?

the voice of doom haunted me

there were many thoughts in my mind

hatha ma yst7i? shbe9er wiya nasser? sheno nasser bsawee? shbasawee? shlon aftak mna? mo tzawaj? shyabee feeny?

n7arajt jad knt 5ayfa

i hung up

it was rude bs il 9ra7a? ystahel!

madree agol 7g nasser

glt 5aleeny at9rf bro7y 3ashan ma y9er bnasser shay

he kept calling

after 5 calls i answered

Me: shtabee? ent ma tst7ee?  mo tzawajt? 5alny ana w nasser n3eesh 7ayatna bsik sa5afa tara jad ma9a5t'ha

Abdullah: ma7ad hamny ghairich

Me: ana 3almik

I closed it bwayha

knt bagool 7ag ay a7ad mn his family bs madree mno!

I went to  Nasser

Me: hala nassoor

Nasser: hala wala

Me: bas2lk shism murt Abdullah?

Nasser: reem al flani lash?

Me: la bs bghait a3rf

I searched her on twitter

Lgait’ha

Il7mdela she had an ask

R7t on her ask w I said:

I need u to follow me back on twitter follow me bs don’t publish

Luckily she replies 2 mins later: ok mno?

I gave her my twitter name

She followed

Me: hello

Her: hi

I told her who I was and 3an il salfa how it all started how he fell in love with me

Her: bsich chthb Abdullah e7ibne ana w bs

Me: ok mashee inshoof

Abee plan athbitlaha ena 7aywan ga9 3alayha

Ga3adt afaker chan edig

I decided to record it

Abdullah: hala wallah

Me: ithlif ro7 3nd murtik ana mtzawja w a5af raby

Abdullah: entay murty hatheek ba6aligha lama ashba3 mnha

9akait il recording w I hung up

I sent her a DM

Me: I have a recording, add me bbm w adizlich iya

She added me and I sent it

Me: sorry wala maby a5arb bainkum bs may9er ynga9 3alaich w 3aib ana mtzawja

Her: L

Me: sam3ee khalty um Abdullah don’t tell him ay shay

Her: ok thanks

Me: 7abebte np

The next day I woke up 3ala 9rakh Nasser

Nasser: ent wala 7a8eer!

He came to me

Nasser: fay yal chalba lash ma glteeli

Me: sheno?

Nasser: 3an hal 7a8eer

Me: Nasser ma knt abee a3a9bik wala

My mother woke up

Mama: sh’hal 9rakh hatha?

Nasser:  Abdullah tathkireena? Edig 3ala fay w yabeeha w ihya mo gaylatli!

Mama: fayou lash mo gaylatla

Me: yuma ma knt abee yz3al w y3a9eb

Mama: nassoor 7abebe t7ibk fay wala w ma kanat tabeek tkoon 3ala a39abik

Nasser: adree asif knt 3ala a39aby wayed ghrt 3alaiha

I ran to him and hugged him

Me: 7abebe

I told them what I did with his wife

Mama: lash? Ta9arofat yahal!

Nasser: la a7san 3ashan t3rf 7a8ee8ta

Me: ma knt abeeha tktshf w tz3al w lazem y3arfoun ena hatha mo hayen na9ab

Mama: 9aja wala

Mama: chan glteli a3arf uma ana

Mama decided to call his mother

His mother: darait w ana mt2asfa wala fashalny

Mama: la 7abebte la yhimich e7na nadree bs golele sh9ar 3ala murta

His mother: t2asaflaha w bas eedha w ihya tmoot 3alay sami7ta ba3d bs aked z3ilat awal shay w wa3adha ena ma ra7 edig 3ala fay w galat enha btsa3da ynsaha

Mama: ehh ashwa yala enshoufich

His mother: mta 3rskum?

Mama: laman ared lkuwait

His mother: enshala

And they hung up

After 1 hr ana w mama tf8na nrou7 nshtry dress

Lbast a blue jump suit wiya a silver jacket w r7na

We walked and went to street kla kan fee boutiques malot wedding dresses

Dashaina ma7al kan 7ail kash5a

Lfait chan ashouf…

Chapter 33

nasser: ta3alay shoofay

i ran outside the room

me: mama!

mama: 7abebte knt abee asawelcih mfaja2a

she gave me a warm hug

mama: yala mta nrou7 nyeeblich ur wedding dress?

me: tawich u came rta7ay awal

mama: ehh wala 9aja banamly shwaya

i showed her the guest room

me: hathy 9arat ur room

mama: yala goodnight

me: ay goodnight il9b7 3ndna anyways ana ba3ad barid anam

mama: ma 3ndkum jam3a?

me: mama l2 nsaitay 7na ib america on sunday ma fee dwam

mama: wee 97 nsait

instead of going to sleep i made them breakfast

i made them pancakes w eggs

i made fresh orange juice

they woke up and ate  it all up ;p

mama: 3ndy mofaja2a thanya lich

me: allah hal shahar kla mofaja2at sheno?

mama: khaled w dalool byamlichon nafs sbou3 3rsch

me: 9j???????

mama: ehh

me: w l3rs?

mama: ma yabon 3rs

me: lash?

mama: yabon shay simple

i called dalal

dalal: alo?

me: alo? lash ma glteeli???????????

dalal: cause omich kanat tabe tfaj2ich! kan wdy agolich bs ma 5alouny wala!

me: eh ok

dalal: nsaitay ena fee time difference yal chalba il fayer 3ndna

me: wee 97 soryy

dalal: bye banam

me: bye

i bbmed khaled

i knew it was il fayer bs 3nad w bkoon bl duwaneya

me: PING!!!

khaled: fayoouu miss u

me: mabrok! :*

khaled: ebarek fech

me: yala roo7 nam

khaled: l2 duwaneya

me: i knew it

five minutes later i got a phone call from kuwait

me: alo?

...: a7bch w bt9ereen lee ana w bs

Chapter 32

me: nasser yala gom! its our fist day in college quick..

nasser: yala bagom

i changed into my black skinny jeans and wore my bright yellow shirt

i applied mascara , eyeliner and fuchsia lipstick

i left my long straight hair the way it is

nasser still didnt wake up

me: nasser! ma gmt? ana tijahazt baro7 bye bye

nasser: la2 n6reeny!

me: ok

nasser: help me get up

i pulled him out

i got my hollister bag out and put ina binder with a few papers and pens

nasser: fayou saweely nafsich please

me: in zain -.-

i got him a binder, papers and pens

me: yala ana banzil na6rtk down

nasser: ok

as i was going down to the lobby i saw

abdullah

abdullah: hala hala fay wala 9dfat

me: ehh haha

abdullah: wain nasser?

me: nazel il7een :)

ashkara he wants me mo 9dfa

abdullah: khal9 3yal ashoofch

me: enshala

in my mind i was like enshala l2 :)
 

when nasser came down i told him

nasser: wala 78eer hatha

me: nasser calm down awal yoom jam3a nothing bi5arb 3alaina

nasser: okay 

we went 

hand in hand

i love him

it was great we met new people

i made friends with a girl called emily

shes a great person

we have wayd in common shes an only child too

i told her about my family and that im a new bride

she has a best friend 

he was a boy

i met him

emily: fay this is my best friend josh

me: hi josh nice to meet u im from kuwait

josh: oh hello how r u

me: im great thank u what about u?

josh: im fine

nasser came from the cafeteria

he already met emily

me: nasser this is josh emily's best friend and josh this is nasser my husband

josh: wow youre married?

me: we just got married

josh: pregnant yet?

nasser 3a6a na'6ra

me: no no not yet

josh: oh ok

we ate together

nasser: shfeeh hatha y5zch

me: nasser bsik!

nasser: kaifi aghar 3ala murti 7abebte

misak eedie and he kissed it

emily: aww how cute

nasser: so josh have u got a girlfriend

josh: yes i have

me: shft w ent tghar ma ra7 yfakir ila feeha

nasser: l2ny amot 3laich

 me: akthar

college was very fun and easy

the teachers were so fun

the students were really friendly

we made many friends

abdullah rad kuwait w tizawaj his cousin bs ma kan yabeeha tzawajha la2na his dad wanted him to

days passed and therewas nothing upsetting enough for me to cut

nasser always checked on me and my cutting all the time

our apartment was cosy and warm we loved it

every friday night we watches different movies and ate a lot, we ordered junk food

we called it movie night

why should i cut? fe shay ghala6 b7yate? l2 ma fe il 7mdila allah ma36eeny 3ayla w rayel w nas y7iboune w n3m wayd mala da3y i cut fa i quit shway shway

it was hard bs i got through it with the help of 7bebe nassor

mama called

me: mama! i miss you

mama: wala ana akthar 7abebte

she told me about baba

me: mama 9j!! rj3ela 3ashan laman ayeb yahil in koun 3ayla kbeera wiya 3yal khalood enshala

mama: rja3tla

me: hiya! sh5bar khalod?

mama: b5air il 7mdilla

me: yala mama miss u mta tyeen

mama: enshala 7jazt 7g 3 days from now 6yarte bacher

me: hiyaa!

mama: yala mama maby a6awil 3alaykum

me: bye a7bich

sha5bari dalal

dshait 3alayha bbm w solafna

me: dalal miss u!!

dalal: il7een u ask about me?

me: sorry yal kalba

dalal: haaha miss u too

me:  sha5barch wiya khalood

dalal: we're great nafs 7alatna

me: aha yala tzawijaw

dalal: okay shlonich wiya 7abeb il gulb? hows college

i told her about college and emily and josh and nasser and movie nights

dalal: allaah abee ayee

me: 7ayach

dalal: allah y7ayech la magdr i have uni

me: ehh wiya khaled

dalal: yup

me: yala chub banam

dalal: ana tawni ga3da mn il noom

me: aked entaw ur timezone ghayr

dalal: adri yala gn x

me: gn x

i told nasser ina mama is coming w chthy

*3 days later*

knock knock knock

we were asleep

me: baro7 ashoof

nasser la g3day a5f 3laich stay here ana bashof

me: ok

me: NASSER MNO?

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